what the hell am i doing?

everything is change.

Alright here is what has been going on latley. I work at arby's now, its okay I guess. Dresden is working on booking a summer tour. Nash Propst will be doing the managing. I get so caught up in the hussle and bussle of things that I get sidetracked and preoccupide with things that don't matter. Im ready to graduate, I can't help but think of all the places that arn't here. I really want to be on the road. I have no idea what im doing when I graduate, this summer will pretty much determine it. I guess as long as I am out of this town and not working fast food then I will be happy.

The other day I was walking downtown springfield with Jodi and a group of other people and this very digruntled looking man came up to me looks at me dead on and just says "hey, please. dont become corrupted like me" Jodi and I just looked at eachother in aww. Iv'e never heard anything with such sustain before. I have no idea where that man came from or what he has been through, but I have thought about him alot latley. Jodi and I have been having some good conversations because of it. I think it's easy to get corrupted....playing in a band in the music scene and whatnot, it would be really easy. I am really glad that man told me that. I have no idea why he singled me out in a group of about 12 people but i am glad he did because i really needed to hear that.

Today I read all the way through my xanga. Its funny to read about everything I have been through the last two and a half years. Its fun to become all nastailgic(sp?) Its even more fun to be nastailgic and realize that i'm only seventeen and that I have many more great things ahead and that those things will be fun to look back on too.

I dont think I could ever really stop writing in this. 

albums I need to get.

1. The new chariot album (when it comes out)
2. The new circa survive album (when it comes out)
3. Bastian's new stuff
4. KILLSWITCH ENGAGE